Shara's Personal Log


Happy Birthday, Ian!

Posted in Uncategorized by Lady Orion on July 23, 2012

Dear, Ian – 

If I had a bazillion credits, I’d buy you…

…a ship:

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a new blaster:

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and lots of booze:

 

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But I don’t, so you’ll have to settle for this:

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Happy Birthday, Ian.

I love you very much.

—-Shara ❤ 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Missing a Lost Love – Jared Stone

Posted in Jared Stone by Lady Orion on January 17, 2012

Personal Log Entry

I can’t believe that I never wrote about what happened to Jared.

Looking back on my entries, though….I see I never did. Maybe it was simply too painful. Maybe I tried to deny it really happened. I’m not sure.

In any case….he’s been on my mind a lot lately, so….it’s time I should update my entries.

*deep breath, then slowly exhales*

Jared and I served on the original Liberty.  I saved his life, and…we fell in love. We were engaged to be married.

But then the Liberty crew went our separate ways. I wasn’t ready to get married. Jared and I lost touch.

Then I found out he was in trouble – a slave on Altori.

With the help of a number of friends, we rescued him.

As time progressed, we rekindled our romance. Took things slower than we did before.

He proposed again. I accepted. We had a private ceremony on Dantoonie, eloping soon after I accepted his proposal. He’d had everything arranged ahead of time. We beamed right down and got married within an hour or so of the proposal.

*a long pause in the recording, voice hoarse with emotion when she resumes*

Jared was shot right after that. We came back to the ship quickly, but….there was nothing I could do. He died on the biobed….and a part of me died, too.

*another long pause, soft weeping is heard, then sniffling as she composes herself*

I’ve lost people I love before. Many, many of them. It hurts.

But I don’t know why the loss of Jared hurts so much more deeply than others. Maybe because I knew him for so long? Because being with him reminded me of a simpler – and happier – past? When I wasn’t tied down with this contract to Navaar?

Maybe it’s because I lost so much when I lost him. My freedom. My possessions. My income. My… *sighs* So much lost, never to be gotten again.

I love Dash. I always will.

But…. would give anything just to see Jared one more time. To say goodbye properly. Or to just see him….alive and happy, even if not with me.

Happy Birthday, Boss!

Posted in Boss by Lady Orion on August 5, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CYAR’IKA!

I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday and tell you I miss you! *blows kisses*

And some other well wishes:

From Ian:

“Yer th’ mos’ honor’ble guy I know, an’ it’s a pleasure knowin’ ya. Happy Birthday, Boss.”

From TaSolaire:

“Happy Birthday, Boss *kisses your cheek* Best. Mando. Ever.”
From Vix:
“Briikase Gote’tuur, Boss. You are a good man and deserve an amazing day! -Vix’ika”
“NO FORCE FLING POO FOR YOO! HAPPY BIRFDAY!” -EmpChihuahua & Sandal Maximus 🙂
From Corden:
“Hey Boss, I heard it;s your birthday. That’s pretty cool. I remember my 20th birthday, I had waffles. I like waffles because they’re like pancakes, except with syrup traps. Anyway, back to you. You’re a pretty cool cat. In a few short months we’ve become pretty good buds. Something I’m pretty stoked about. While I don’t know anything incriminating about you, yet, I’m sure I will soon.  That being said, I’m pretty excited about your adventure to the land of California. They say there’s gold here! We could put our Mando suits on and go prospecting! I bet Discovery Channel would be willing to film us for it. Two Mandalorians out trying to prospect. Oh the shenanigans that would ensue! Well, I’m getting a little long winded, so I’ll say happy birthday, and make sure you wrap up before you get get down. Don’t want any little Boss’s running around! Happy birthday Boss, Love, Corden. (Yes homo)(Like no homo. but opposite. You get it)”
From G’naal:
“Happy Birthday, cretin.”
((Hope you have a GREAT birthday! <3))

Happy Birthday, Vix!

Posted in OOC Post by Lady Orion on July 25, 2011

 

 

Happy Birthday, Vix!

We’re so glad to have you with NavKor 36!

Some thoughts from others:

“Happy birthday to a great rper and a better friend.” (@LightSideChef)

“Hey kid, I hope you have a great day and have many, many more years of a happy life. Briikase gote’tuur, Vix’ika!” (@RC_Boss)

“You are an amazing person. You have such a big heart, kind, loving, funny, so creative. Happy Birthday. Hope you have a wonderful day! All my love, forever and always, Your Cheza”

“Happy birthday.” (@_Navaar)

(From all of us at #NavKor36RPG – have a GREAT birthday, and we’re glad you’re with us.)

 

 

Happy Birthday, Ian!!!!

Posted in Ian Scarlet by Lady Orion on July 23, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, IAN!

I know we met under less-than-perfect circumstances, but I have grown to love you. You are a wonderful captain, a sweet man, and my best friend.

I am so glad that I got to know you, and I wish you many, many more happy birthdays in your future.

Love,

Shara

Birthday wishes from others:

“Happy Birthday! Come visit us sometime! We miss you!” (From Emerald) 

“Wishing you a fun, wonderful and fantastic birthday, Cap’n! You deserve it! –Love, Becky” 🙂

Captain, it’s been an honor working with you on the Liberty. You’re a good man and I wish you the best. Briikase gote’tuur, alor’ad! (from @RC_Boss)

For Ian: Happy Birthday, Cap’n! Lemme know when that engine of yours needs a good lube job. 😉 (from @Deliah_Blue )

“WEXIA!!” (From @HRMQueenofWexia )

“It was a pleasure to work for you one our one mission and I wish you many more wonderful years.” (from @Miss_Vix_Lahue )

“To my favorite drunk captain, can’t wait till you stop in my bar, with some affection and mostly amusement, Wes.”

“Since it is your birthday, I will not kill you. Yet.” (from @TynnaraKiet)

 

Dash Solaran

Posted in Boss,Dash Solaran,Warlocke by Lady Orion on April 13, 2011

I am noticing a pattern.

It seems that most of my updates are about people. Men in my life.

There are a few reasons for that. The first being that it’s not usually my job to keep track of missions. Unless they’re medical emergencies or something like that.

The second reason is one that saddens me.

So often I have people come into my life and then they disappear, or they die, or they simply become busy and move on. Sometimes they even die or disappear and then return somehow – only to disappear again, so I lose them twice.

I have not heard anything from Warlocke in two months. Not a comm, not a note, nothing.

Deliah has been visiting family. I hear from her on the comm sometimes, so at least I get to talk to her.

Boss has been busy with his new squad of Mandos. I did get to see him for a while two days ago, but he was leaving on a mission. I’m not sure when I’ll see him again.

I’ve met someone. His name is Dash Solaran. He’s a musician and a smuggler. *soft laugh* Quite a combination. *smiles* He is very special. I’m not even sure I can put my finger on why. Boss and Warlocke both love me. I know this. I love them, too.

But….. deep down…. I also know that I could never be the only one in their lives. Warlocke’s species does not believe in pair bonding. They believe in having a pride. And there’s nothing wrong with that. I always thought that kind of sounded even better than monogamy. And with Boss, I know that he is also with Deliah. I’ve never had a problem with that. I also know that if Boss found someone else that appealed to him, then he would be with that person. I’ve never asked for exclusivity, nor have I ever expected it from either of them.

But then….Dash came along….

He wants to be the only man in my life – the only one that I’m intimate with, I mean.

I’ve been faithful before. I was with Mirek. With MU Tom. With Ghez. With Vao. With Jard (Count Dooku).

I always felt that I could be exclusive with the right person. I had also made a commitment to Jared to be only with him…..

I have to keep asking myself – is it that I want to be poly-amorous, or that I simply just don’t want to be alone.

Even having four people that I am, technically, intimate with – Boss, Warlocke, Deliah, and H’Ress – I am still alone so much. I still find Enzi so I can sleep at night. When he’s not busy of course. I even stayed with Ian for a couple of nights when he was so upset. Nothing happens when I stay with Ian or Enzi, of course. They are simply someone to curl up with so I will be able to sleep.

Dash has asked that I be his girlfriend.

I said yes.

I’m not sure how I’m going to handle things when I am on a mission and Dash is not with me. Maybe I could find a pet…. or something. I would feel odd staying with Enzi or Ian at night so that I could sleep, knowing that Dash would probably not be comfortable with that.

I’ll need to talk to him and figure something out. I don’t want to mess this up.

Warlocke – Reunion

Posted in Boss,Warlocke by Lady Orion on February 24, 2011
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Warlocke is home. We are home.

So much has happened….

Nearly a year ago, Warlocke was given to me as a companion – a gift from H’Ress, because I hated to sleep alone/be alone. She took her own DNA, modified it to my requests, and created Warlocke to be with me since she was (at that time) spending a lot of time in the Mirror Universe and wasn’t around as much as she wanted to be.

In the beginning, Warlocke was a quadruped. I got him as a cub.

He was so cute!

But he wasn’t a pet. He was sentient. He was a companion. H’Ress had created two bonds with us: telepathic and genetic (although I didn’t fully understand about the second at first).

And he was wonderful. He stayed with me almost all the time. He was the best companion, because he knew my thoughts. He loved me, wanted me to be happy.

He grew quickly and was huge.

About 10 feet long/tall once he was grown, weighing 900+ pounds.

He was my companion

He lived with me and Jard (Count Dooku) on the ship, and then on Serenno.

And then….Jard went on a business trip….and never returned.

I took the loss hard. It was a very dark time for me. H’Ress even came to get me and bring me to NavKor/Tynnara because she was worried about me. Warlocke was worried, too.

Then Warlocke had a request of H’Ress. He wanted to become a biped. He felt that becoming a biped would help him to become a better companion.

The transformation was….remarkable.

He was still tall – 8′ 4″, which is a couple of inches taller than H’Ress.

Seeing him in his bipedal form for the first time….hearing him speak….his voice was deep, rich and warm….I can’t even put into words how it felt when he puts his arms around me….held me….

We stayed as we had been….friends, companions….nothing intimate. I was still so hesitant, even though he was willing to me my…mate. Very willing. I didn’t realize it, but H’Ress had “imprinted” my DNA on him. Basically….he views me as the ideal mate.

He went through his first rut while we were on a mission. And…one thing led to another…and… *blushes green* I became his mate.

It never occurred to us that we could actually conceive, but we could. And did. (Thanks, H’Ress for making sure we were genetically compatible for breeding! That was a hint of sarcasm, by the way.)

I became pregnant. It was a shock, but we were happy about it.

Then came the speeder accident. I was injured severely. I lost the cubs. Miscarried.

We both took it hard, but Warlocke seemed to take it especially hard. He worked more and more. Took long-term missions. Then….stopped checking in with me.

I thought he was angry with me, blamed me somehow for the loss of the cubs.

He was gone for months. I was heartbroken, but figured that I needed to move on somehow.

While he was gone, I was with Jared. Even married Jared. And then….became a widow the same day when he was killed.

And then….a week or so ago….I met Davidov.

Things moved quickly with Davidov. He and I became intimate. And he was my Master. In a voluntary sense. He asked and I accepted. I belonged to him. I gave myself willingly.

But then I found out that Warlocke was in trouble, and I realized that he hasn’t been in contact because he was in trouble. That maybe….he wasn’t angry with me. I hoped so, anyway.

I told Davidov that I had to help H’Ress find Warlocke. He volunteered to help, too, which was very sweet of him.

We found Warlocke, and although he was weak and injured, he was alive. We came back to the Orion Defiance, and are now back in Boss’ house.

I belonged to both Warlocke and Davidov – but in very different ways.

Davidov was my Master. It was voluntary. He asked and I said yes. Because of my background, the Master/slave relationship is a familiar one. A comforting one. But I knew he didn’t love me, nor I him. A fondness, yes, but not love.

With Warlocke….it was belonging in an entirely different sense. We are bonded, both with a telepathic and a genetic link. He loves me dearly, and I love him. He was created for me. He and H’Ress are my family, and they always have been. I belong to him in the sense that we love each other and are forever connected – even if not together in the same room at that moment.

While Warlocke would never insist on monogamy for me….there is no way I can belong to both men. Because of the nature of ownership with Davidov, there would have come a time when I would have to make some kind of choice between them.

In my mind, there was no hesitation: I chose Warlocke. I no longer belong to Davidov.

And so now….we are together again. With Boss. And H’Ress.

Once again….my family is complete.

Relationships and Love – Warlocke, Boss and Jake

I am an Orion.

I know that seems like a silly thing to say.  It’s obvious, right?  The green skin kind of gives it away.

But it’s more than just being green.  A lot more.

The Starfleet database describes Orion females as “animalistic in nature, known for their extreme carnal appetites and their innate skill of seduction.”

The database has some lies in there, but that part is true.  *sighs*  I am….that way.

I always fought it before.  Being around humans, I tried so hard to fight it and to conform to their ways.  I really did.  I was monogamous with anyone I dated.  I’m not saying I never thought about cheating, or that I didn’t steal a kiss or two, but I never slept with anyone else when I was dating someone.

*sighs*  But it was so hard.  I struggled with it so much.  Like H’Ress said:  This pair-bonding baffles me.

So then I met Warlocke. He is my mate.  I love him dearly.

He understands me and my nature.  Honestly, his nature is much the same.  They don’t really do pair bonding with his species.  They form prides.   It’s like extended family, and it could include multiple sexual relationships, too.   It’s not restrictive.

So that brings me to Boss. And Jake.

Boss – and his son, Kalei – are like family to me and Warlocke.  I love them both to pieces.  In fact, if anything happens to Boss, I’ll have custody of Kalei.

And until recently, that’s all Boss and I were – just…family.  Like…I don’t know.  Just family.  But a few days ago, we crossed the line.  Flirting, then touching, then a kiss.  *sighs*  That’s all it took for me.  The love turned into something more.  Stronger, deeper, romantic.  He felt the same way.

Warlocke didn’t mind if I was also with Boss, of course.  He had no objection to him.  So…when Boss came back from his mission, we stayed the night together.  Nothing happened that night – just a massage, some kissing and then falling asleep in each others’ arms – but this morning *blushes* we gave in to our passion.  It was….wonderful.  *shivers with delight just thinking about it*

*sighs*  So now that brings me to Jake.

Jake is a new hire.  Quite honestly, we pretty much just jumped each other and had wild sex out of pure lust.  Sweet Mother of Orion, it was great.  *giggles* He’s really nice, but I don’t know him that well.  *sighs*  Yeah, that sounds bad to humans, but…I’ve gotten to where I don’t care what others think.

Warlocke knows about Jake and Boss.  Boss and Jake know about Warlocke.  They are all okay with the situation.

And so am I.

Pregnant

Posted in Warlocke by Lady Orion on July 18, 2010

I’m still….stunned.

I’m pregnant.

Warlocke is the father.

We found out yesterday.  I know I shouldn’t be so surprised, but…I didn’t think that our DNA would be compatible for….conception.

I’m in shock – we both were – but….this was unplanned,  not unwelcome. *smiles*  A child will be welcomed with open arms.

I need to meet with H’Ress and have a thorough exam to find out the due date and if it’s only one child or…more.

Plus…Warlocke wants us to form a pride.  *smiles*  The equivalent of marriage for his species.  I thought that was very sweet.  It’s a little different than marriage, but…kind of similar.

I guess…I’m settling down.

*smiles*  I like it.

Warlocke and Nak Shimor

Posted in away missions,love,Warlocke by Lady Orion on July 16, 2010

The mission on Nak Shimor went smoothly.  Kalei did very well with assisting me, and Warlocke kept us safe.

I’ve been working on Boss to help with his injuries.  He was severely injured on the mission to Giju.

Warlocke and I are continuing to be close.  We are….mates.  Lifemates, I guess is the term.

The bond we share makes intimacy with him….incredible.  We can feel each other’s passion, as well as our own.  We know each other’s wants, needs and desires without having to speak them.  Plus the fact that I love him dearly…well…that makes it even more special.

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