Shara's Personal Log


Relationships and Love – Warlocke, Boss and Jake

I am an Orion.

I know that seems like a silly thing to say.  It’s obvious, right?  The green skin kind of gives it away.

But it’s more than just being green.  A lot more.

The Starfleet database describes Orion females as “animalistic in nature, known for their extreme carnal appetites and their innate skill of seduction.”

The database has some lies in there, but that part is true.  *sighs*  I am….that way.

I always fought it before.  Being around humans, I tried so hard to fight it and to conform to their ways.  I really did.  I was monogamous with anyone I dated.  I’m not saying I never thought about cheating, or that I didn’t steal a kiss or two, but I never slept with anyone else when I was dating someone.

*sighs*  But it was so hard.  I struggled with it so much.  Like H’Ress said:  This pair-bonding baffles me.

So then I met Warlocke. He is my mate.  I love him dearly.

He understands me and my nature.  Honestly, his nature is much the same.  They don’t really do pair bonding with his species.  They form prides.   It’s like extended family, and it could include multiple sexual relationships, too.   It’s not restrictive.

So that brings me to Boss. And Jake.

Boss – and his son, Kalei – are like family to me and Warlocke.  I love them both to pieces.  In fact, if anything happens to Boss, I’ll have custody of Kalei.

And until recently, that’s all Boss and I were – just…family.  Like…I don’t know.  Just family.  But a few days ago, we crossed the line.  Flirting, then touching, then a kiss.  *sighs*  That’s all it took for me.  The love turned into something more.  Stronger, deeper, romantic.  He felt the same way.

Warlocke didn’t mind if I was also with Boss, of course.  He had no objection to him.  So…when Boss came back from his mission, we stayed the night together.  Nothing happened that night – just a massage, some kissing and then falling asleep in each others’ arms – but this morning *blushes* we gave in to our passion.  It was….wonderful.  *shivers with delight just thinking about it*

*sighs*  So now that brings me to Jake.

Jake is a new hire.  Quite honestly, we pretty much just jumped each other and had wild sex out of pure lust.  Sweet Mother of Orion, it was great.  *giggles* He’s really nice, but I don’t know him that well.  *sighs*  Yeah, that sounds bad to humans, but…I’ve gotten to where I don’t care what others think.

Warlocke knows about Jake and Boss.  Boss and Jake know about Warlocke.  They are all okay with the situation.

And so am I.

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Mission Update and Warlocke

Posted in IC Post,Warlocke by Lady Orion on July 2, 2010

The mission accomplished the objective – the trade agreement between B’Daal and NavKor 36 was signed – but there was an incident.  A rogue sniper tried to kill us.  He shot Phobetor – who was shielding Emerald with his body – and the projectile went through Phobetor and hit Em.

Had Phobetor not jumped in front of Emerald, it would have killed her instantly.

They are both recovering, and have even gone on another mission.

Now….for Warlocke.

Warlocke was created for me by H’Ress as my protector and companion.  I raised him from a cub.  He looked like this when I first got him:

Wasn’t he CUTE?!

He grew into a large warcat.  HUGE!

And then….he asked H’Ress for the ability to be able to shift between bipedal and a quadruped.

In his quadruped form:

And to give you and idea of his size:

In his bipedal form:

Another look:

And….he’s been staying in his biped form quite a bit.  He and I have been going on missions, and he’s working for NavKor 36 now.

He and I have grown….*blushes* very close on this last mission.

Working for NavKor 36. Again.

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on June 23, 2010
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Well, I’m back to working for Navaar.  Well, NavKor 36, but it’s still for Navaar.

Still no word from Jard.  I’m beyond worried.  Almost….resigned to the fact that something awful has happened.  It’s been over a month since he’s commed. *voice trails off sadly*

*after a while the recording resumes*  I’m working in the med center here at NavKor HQ.  It’s nice – pretty much like SickBay on Voyager.  Dr. Akanseh has been visiting me here, too, studying the facilities.  *smiles*

I’ve also agreed to go on a mission for NavKor 36.  I have a bad feeling about this one…..

Just call me……..DOCTOR SHARA!!!

This has been the most stressful week of my life!

When I started med school here on Serenno with Dr. Akanseh, he was intrigued and impressed with the amount of training I had already.  He was also very curious about the methods and technology that I was used to on both Voyager and the Defiance.

I explained that I had studied under an apprenticeship with The Doctor on Voyager, plus I had worked closely with Dr. Ishom for a time.   Dr. Akanseh asked me tons of questions, and he also had me lead a workshop – demonstrating the tech from my galaxy.  Then he said that because of my training, he had the authority to grant my doctorate based on what I had already learned – if he felt I were qualified.

Then came the final test – spending several days on the Orion Defiance.  I showed him every piece of equipment, every hypospray, every medication in the Sickbay – plus went over actual case studies I had worked on.

He commed the Doctor of Voyager and Dr. Ishom for an evaluation.  I’m not ashamed to say I was a nervous wreck while he talked to them.

But guess what??

Dr. Akanseh said they gave me a glowing recommendation (although The Doctor did have a few things to say about my attitude – sheesh, you threaten to deactivate someone one time….), and that he was incredibly impressed with both my knowledge and how well I ran Sickbay when I was there – taking charge, giving directions (and I don’t even work there anymore).

So………………….

JUST CALL ME DR. SHARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *happy dance*

Life-changing decision

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on April 23, 2010
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After being on Serenno with Jard for a few days, I realized that I did not want to go back to the Defiance.

I wanted to stay with Jard on Serenno and finish up my training. I love being on Serenno with fresh air, real sunshine and plenty of room for Warlocke to roam.

I resigned as the Chief Medical Officer of the Defiance.  Navaar wasn’t too pleased, but she’ll get over it.

I have been studying with Dr. Akanseh, and he is quite fascinated with the technology I use. He has never seen a tricorder before, nor has he seen a dermal regenerator, hypospray and much of my other equipment.

He has asked that I conduct a workshop demonstrating the tech from my ‘verse.  I think he’s kind of impressed with it. *giggles*

I am really nervous about this upcoming workshop, but I think if I do well, then I might be eligible for an accelerated doctorate.  Dr. Akanseh mentioned I might be able to complete an apprenticeship and complete my doctorate that way.  I am so excited!

The best part about it is how proud Jard is of me.   He was practically beaming with pride when I told him about it last night.  *blushes green, smiles*

I’m going to do everything I can to make sure he keeps being proud of me.

Vacation!

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on April 14, 2010
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Jard is finally back!

And he had a surprise for me and for Piett and Qwi!

Jard had the estate where we lived on Serenno so many years ago restored to how it was then.  Had everything put in place.  Had….me put on the deed as co-owner.  I’ve never owned a home before.  I am….still in shock.

And he also gave Piett and Qwi a wedding gift:  a home/estate of their own, on Serenno.

We arrived on Serenno last night.  I nearly cried when I saw his….I mean, our home.  The memories, the emotions…

I wish I had more than just a few days’ leave.  It is beautiful here…..

A Fresh Start

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on April 4, 2010
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Personal Log:

So many things have happened….

The DNA test showed that Piett is, indeed, my son.  It also showed that Count Dooku – Jard – is his father.

It was a shock at first, but then….it felt so nice to know that…..I had a family.  Piett is a sweet man, and he has a lovely wife, Qwi.  I wanted to take time to get to know Piett, Qwi….and Jard.

Then Vao came back.  He was here on the ship the whole time, of course, but he had sealed himself in his coffin so that he could try to gain control of his darker (vampiric) side.

As soon as he fed, he….proposed.  I was shocked.

I turned him down.  What else could I do?  So much had happened that to agree to marry him under those circumstances would have been a complete disaster.  I was beginning to remember bits and pieces of what had happened with Jard so long ago.  I wanted to spend time with Piett and Qwi.  I knew I could never do that if I were married to Vao.  It wouldn’t have been fair to him or to me.  Or to anyone, actually.

Vao was angry, and understandably so.  He says that I betrayed him, but I didn’t.  I had no way of knowing about Jard.  I didn’t remember!  But once I learned about everything, I couldn’t marry Vao.  I just couldn’t.  I didn’t mean to hurt Vao.  I simply knew that to marry him under those circumstances would be wrong.

Vao left the ship.  I have no idea where he is now.

The bond with Vao was broken – after a long process.  I’m…..so glad that’s over.  It was difficult.

Since the bond was broken, I can remember so much more of what happened between Jard and myself.  I remember more each day.  There are a few gaps, but not very many.  I can remember the times we spent together, the promises we made, the talks we had.  The….the life we talked about building together.

I know that Jard is a Sith.  He’s no Boy Scout; but I trust him.  He would never hurt me.  He’s an honorable man.  I know this much about him.

He has searched for me for so long – so many years – he is so happy to have found me and Piett.  He’s trying so hard to make up for lost time.

And….I have to admit that I’ve been searching for Jard for a long time, as well.  Not as long as he has (because of the time travel), but for years.  Looking for him – even though I didn’t consciously remember him, my heart never forgot Jard and the feelings I had for him.

Now we have the chance to have a life together…..a life that was interrupted so many years ago.

A fresh start.

My life just got a whole lot more complicated….

Personal log:

I don’t know where to start, so I am just going to ramble.  I may or may not be coherent.

I have been spending a lot of time with Jard (Count Dooku).  From the start, I felt quite close to him.  I couldn’t explain it, but I just felt like I knew him already.  When he held me, it felt so familiar.  So…right.

*quickly*  Not that Jard has ever made any advances towards me, of course.  He has been a perfect gentleman.  He has simply…held me close..on occasion…and….it felt quite….nice.

But then….he dropped a bombshell on me, and now I am so confused.

He said we knew each other years ago.  That I had been a slave.  That we were…lovers.  That…we had a child together.

He said he took the child right after it was born and gave it to another family to raise – and told me the child had died.  He did it for our safety; that if anyone had found out, I would have been killed, and probably the child would have been, too.

Then he erased my memories of everything – of him, of the child, of everything that had happened.

And the child…is Admiral Piett.

Jard’s story could be true.  The Orion Syndicate has trade routes everywhere – even to this galaxy – and I have time traveled before – technically I’m 249 years old – and there are other things, as well:

  1. I picked up Imperial Basic so quickly.  It was…almost like it was something I knew already but hadn’t spoken in a while.  If I had been here before, that would make sense.
  2. I know things about Jard that I shouldn’t – small things, like how to read his expressions, how to read his moods – that I shouldn’t know if I had just met him.
  3. I am not full-blooded Orion.  It’s possible for Piett not to display any outward signs of his Orion heritage.
  4. I keep getting…. flashbacks? Memories? of our times together.  Nothing much, and nothing….um…intimate, but just…bits and pieces of times we had shared.  From a long time ago.
  5. And I have…feeling for him that I can’t…put aside.  It’s crazy.  I want to have him close, hold him, and…more…but….I just met him.  It’s driving me insane.

And, of course, there’s Vao.  I haven’t seen him much lately – he’s been busy – but…I know that once he comes back, I’ll have quite a huge predicament on my hands.  I can’t spend time with Jard without Vao being upset – and vice-versa.  I haven’t even had time to talk to Vao about all of this.

I love Vao.  He has my heart.  I shouldn’t even be spending time with Jard, but…I can’t turn Jard away.  I have feelings for him, too.

*sighs*

Then there are the people  who insist that Jard is evil and has ulterior motives for telling me this, that he’s lying, that it’s not possible.

But they are wrong.  Why would Jard do such a thing?  Surely there are easier ways to win me over….

*sighs*

I will be conducting a DNA test soon, to determine if Jard is telling the truth.

Until then….I will simply….take it one day at a time.

A guest on board!

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on March 9, 2010
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Personal Log:

I am so excited!  We have a guest on board!  His name is Count Dooku.  He told me to call him Jard.  *smiles*

I am not sure how long it is going to be staying, but I hope that he can stay for a while.  He’s really nice, and he kisses my hand a lot.  *giggles*  And he….calls me “pet.”  *blushes green*  I’m not really sure why, but….I like it when he calls me that.

I got him set up in his guest quarters last night.  I made sure that he was put in one of the nicest rooms, and then it was fully stocked with everything he might need – including a minibar that had all of the types of drinks that I noticed him ordering at the party.  I also made sure that there were few other types of alcohol I thought he might like.

Last night I had several people that were trying to get my attention, so Jard and I agreed that the best thing to do would be to let him get settled in his quarters for the night and that I would see him today for his tour.

I have to say that I’m looking forward to spending more time with him.  He is a very….intriguing man.

Whoops!  Got to go!  Duty calls!

~Shara, Chief Medic of the Orion Defiance

Back on board the ship

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on March 6, 2010
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The surgery was a success.  I feel so much better.  No more pain!  H’Ress did a fantastic job!

Vao seems to be in control more.  His dark side seems to be in check; however, we’ve had a few disagreements about our…bond.  And about how much I talk to people about it.

When I was away from Vao, the addiction I have for his bite was almost too much for me.  I was not in control of myself.  I would have done ANYTHING for him to feed – even go up against H’Ress.   When Vao came to visit me, I challenged H’Ress more than once to allow him to feed and to use a treatment that she didn’t feel right authorizing just so Vao could feed from me sooner.

I spoke to H’Ress about finding something  – ANYTHING – that could help me could help me control this craving.  And she did.  She developed a formula that can help me control it.

I had her send a shipment of the formula to me, and I began using it.  My thinking was that if I keep it under control, I can allow Vao to feed when he needs to, but I won’t be so desperate for it.

The hypos are working, but Vao is upset with me – saying that meditation and relaxation should be enough, and that if I use the hypos to help me stay in control, I’m weak.

I don’t care.  The hypos help me be myself and they will keep me in control while I learn the mediation and relaxation techniques.

In happier news – we’ll be having a party on board tonight!  I’m so excited!

And H’Ress is making a pet for me!  I’m supposed to get him tonight!  *happy dance*  I’ll post pics and details once I get him.  I’m not too sure what to expect yet.

Gotta go and get ready for the party!  Bye!

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