Shara's Personal Log


Warlocke – Reunion

Posted in Boss,Warlocke by Lady Orion on February 24, 2011
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Warlocke is home. We are home.

So much has happened….

Nearly a year ago, Warlocke was given to me as a companion – a gift from H’Ress, because I hated to sleep alone/be alone. She took her own DNA, modified it to my requests, and created Warlocke to be with me since she was (at that time) spending a lot of time in the Mirror Universe and wasn’t around as much as she wanted to be.

In the beginning, Warlocke was a quadruped. I got him as a cub.

He was so cute!

But he wasn’t a pet. He was sentient. He was a companion. H’Ress had created two bonds with us: telepathic and genetic (although I didn’t fully understand about the second at first).

And he was wonderful. He stayed with me almost all the time. He was the best companion, because he knew my thoughts. He loved me, wanted me to be happy.

He grew quickly and was huge.

About 10 feet long/tall once he was grown, weighing 900+ pounds.

He was my companion

He lived with me and Jard (Count Dooku) on the ship, and then on Serenno.

And then….Jard went on a business trip….and never returned.

I took the loss hard. It was a very dark time for me. H’Ress even came to get me and bring me to NavKor/Tynnara because she was worried about me. Warlocke was worried, too.

Then Warlocke had a request of H’Ress. He wanted to become a biped. He felt that becoming a biped would help him to become a better companion.

The transformation was….remarkable.

He was still tall – 8′ 4″, which is a couple of inches taller than H’Ress.

Seeing him in his bipedal form for the first time….hearing him speak….his voice was deep, rich and warm….I can’t even put into words how it felt when he puts his arms around me….held me….

We stayed as we had been….friends, companions….nothing intimate. I was still so hesitant, even though he was willing to me my…mate. Very willing. I didn’t realize it, but H’Ress had “imprinted” my DNA on him. Basically….he views me as the ideal mate.

He went through his first rut while we were on a mission. And…one thing led to another…and… *blushes green* I became his mate.

It never occurred to us that we could actually conceive, but we could. And did. (Thanks, H’Ress for making sure we were genetically compatible for breeding! That was a hint of sarcasm, by the way.)

I became pregnant. It was a shock, but we were happy about it.

Then came the speeder accident. I was injured severely. I lost the cubs. Miscarried.

We both took it hard, but Warlocke seemed to take it especially hard. He worked more and more. Took long-term missions. Then….stopped checking in with me.

I thought he was angry with me, blamed me somehow for the loss of the cubs.

He was gone for months. I was heartbroken, but figured that I needed to move on somehow.

While he was gone, I was with Jared. Even married Jared. And then….became a widow the same day when he was killed.

And then….a week or so ago….I met Davidov.

Things moved quickly with Davidov. He and I became intimate. And he was my Master. In a voluntary sense. He asked and I accepted. I belonged to him. I gave myself willingly.

But then I found out that Warlocke was in trouble, and I realized that he hasn’t been in contact because he was in trouble. That maybe….he wasn’t angry with me. I hoped so, anyway.

I told Davidov that I had to help H’Ress find Warlocke. He volunteered to help, too, which was very sweet of him.

We found Warlocke, and although he was weak and injured, he was alive. We came back to the Orion Defiance, and are now back in Boss’ house.

I belonged to both Warlocke and Davidov – but in very different ways.

Davidov was my Master. It was voluntary. He asked and I said yes. Because of my background, the Master/slave relationship is a familiar one. A comforting one. But I knew he didn’t love me, nor I him. A fondness, yes, but not love.

With Warlocke….it was belonging in an entirely different sense. We are bonded, both with a telepathic and a genetic link. He loves me dearly, and I love him. He was created for me. He and H’Ress are my family, and they always have been. I belong to him in the sense that we love each other and are forever connected – even if not together in the same room at that moment.

While Warlocke would never insist on monogamy for me….there is no way I can belong to both men. Because of the nature of ownership with Davidov, there would have come a time when I would have to make some kind of choice between them.

In my mind, there was no hesitation: I chose Warlocke. I no longer belong to Davidov.

And so now….we are together again. With Boss. And H’Ress.

Once again….my family is complete.

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Relationships and Love – Warlocke, Boss and Jake

I am an Orion.

I know that seems like a silly thing to say.  It’s obvious, right?  The green skin kind of gives it away.

But it’s more than just being green.  A lot more.

The Starfleet database describes Orion females as “animalistic in nature, known for their extreme carnal appetites and their innate skill of seduction.”

The database has some lies in there, but that part is true.  *sighs*  I am….that way.

I always fought it before.  Being around humans, I tried so hard to fight it and to conform to their ways.  I really did.  I was monogamous with anyone I dated.  I’m not saying I never thought about cheating, or that I didn’t steal a kiss or two, but I never slept with anyone else when I was dating someone.

*sighs*  But it was so hard.  I struggled with it so much.  Like H’Ress said:  This pair-bonding baffles me.

So then I met Warlocke. He is my mate.  I love him dearly.

He understands me and my nature.  Honestly, his nature is much the same.  They don’t really do pair bonding with his species.  They form prides.   It’s like extended family, and it could include multiple sexual relationships, too.   It’s not restrictive.

So that brings me to Boss. And Jake.

Boss – and his son, Kalei – are like family to me and Warlocke.  I love them both to pieces.  In fact, if anything happens to Boss, I’ll have custody of Kalei.

And until recently, that’s all Boss and I were – just…family.  Like…I don’t know.  Just family.  But a few days ago, we crossed the line.  Flirting, then touching, then a kiss.  *sighs*  That’s all it took for me.  The love turned into something more.  Stronger, deeper, romantic.  He felt the same way.

Warlocke didn’t mind if I was also with Boss, of course.  He had no objection to him.  So…when Boss came back from his mission, we stayed the night together.  Nothing happened that night – just a massage, some kissing and then falling asleep in each others’ arms – but this morning *blushes* we gave in to our passion.  It was….wonderful.  *shivers with delight just thinking about it*

*sighs*  So now that brings me to Jake.

Jake is a new hire.  Quite honestly, we pretty much just jumped each other and had wild sex out of pure lust.  Sweet Mother of Orion, it was great.  *giggles* He’s really nice, but I don’t know him that well.  *sighs*  Yeah, that sounds bad to humans, but…I’ve gotten to where I don’t care what others think.

Warlocke knows about Jake and Boss.  Boss and Jake know about Warlocke.  They are all okay with the situation.

And so am I.

Warlocke

Posted in Warlocke by Lady Orion on June 4, 2010
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Wow.  O.O

H’Ress made some changes to Warlocke, and they are….incredible.

He can shift from biped to quadruped.  I have to admit that it’s a little unsettling to see him as a biped.  I don’t really know why.

But he’s still Warlocke, and I still adore him.  I guess I just never looked at him as….a guy before.  I know that sounds stupid, but….*sighs*  Before he was my pet.  Now, he’s….not.  He’s….like a guy version of H’Ress.

He’s 8′ 4″ tall (just a little taller than H’Ress is).  He’s….*blushes* very definitely male.  We still have our bond, so…I can sense his thoughts and he can sense mine.

It’ll just take time to get used to him in this form, is all.

Life-changing decision

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on April 23, 2010
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After being on Serenno with Jard for a few days, I realized that I did not want to go back to the Defiance.

I wanted to stay with Jard on Serenno and finish up my training. I love being on Serenno with fresh air, real sunshine and plenty of room for Warlocke to roam.

I resigned as the Chief Medical Officer of the Defiance.  Navaar wasn’t too pleased, but she’ll get over it.

I have been studying with Dr. Akanseh, and he is quite fascinated with the technology I use. He has never seen a tricorder before, nor has he seen a dermal regenerator, hypospray and much of my other equipment.

He has asked that I conduct a workshop demonstrating the tech from my ‘verse.  I think he’s kind of impressed with it. *giggles*

I am really nervous about this upcoming workshop, but I think if I do well, then I might be eligible for an accelerated doctorate.  Dr. Akanseh mentioned I might be able to complete an apprenticeship and complete my doctorate that way.  I am so excited!

The best part about it is how proud Jard is of me.   He was practically beaming with pride when I told him about it last night.  *blushes green, smiles*

I’m going to do everything I can to make sure he keeps being proud of me.

Vacation!

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on April 14, 2010
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Jard is finally back!

And he had a surprise for me and for Piett and Qwi!

Jard had the estate where we lived on Serenno so many years ago restored to how it was then.  Had everything put in place.  Had….me put on the deed as co-owner.  I’ve never owned a home before.  I am….still in shock.

And he also gave Piett and Qwi a wedding gift:  a home/estate of their own, on Serenno.

We arrived on Serenno last night.  I nearly cried when I saw his….I mean, our home.  The memories, the emotions…

I wish I had more than just a few days’ leave.  It is beautiful here…..

A guest on board!

Posted in IC Post by Lady Orion on March 9, 2010
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I am so excited!  We have a guest on board!  His name is Count Dooku.  He told me to call him Jard.  *smiles*

I am not sure how long it is going to be staying, but I hope that he can stay for a while.  He’s really nice, and he kisses my hand a lot.  *giggles*  And he….calls me “pet.”  *blushes green*  I’m not really sure why, but….I like it when he calls me that.

I got him set up in his guest quarters last night.  I made sure that he was put in one of the nicest rooms, and then it was fully stocked with everything he might need – including a minibar that had all of the types of drinks that I noticed him ordering at the party.  I also made sure that there were few other types of alcohol I thought he might like.

Last night I had several people that were trying to get my attention, so Jard and I agreed that the best thing to do would be to let him get settled in his quarters for the night and that I would see him today for his tour.

I have to say that I’m looking forward to spending more time with him.  He is a very….intriguing man.

Whoops!  Got to go!  Duty calls!

~Shara, Chief Medic of the Orion Defiance